A Somber Saturday....My night was very hard...as I lay in bed Joe's pillow and pad was next to me...Zeke and Reba came close ..the house was just so still.. I kept thinking about the wonderful times that Joe gave me...all the laughing we all did as he showed us all his tricks...his little fuzzy duck he loved that Jean from JeMar gave him...and how he quacked it to get our attention...
Yes, last night was a long night and I just thanked God for letting me have him for all those years...he truly was the light of my life..He was a blessing for me as I was going through my recovery from having my heart attack..up and down that darn little boy would be with me and lay right by my side...Yes, I am missing him and will for quite some time..
This morning as I woke, I felt the bitter cold and I thought ...oh my goodness Joe would have never survived this cold...I grabbed my Reba close as she was laying over my head on the top of the pillow..My Zeke was nestled in close to me too...Abby..well she loves her donut bed...and she was snug as a bug in a rug...
I've had my moments ...like when I washed all Joe's blankets and PJ's...I had to hold those PJ's close to me...and when I made breakfast this morning..going in their room and placing the bowls in the crates...I came to Joe's and I had to touch it...Yeah, I did cry...and so did the crew..Zeke kept going over to Joe's crate...and Reba who always snuck in to see what Joe left only stood at the door way...
We all later sat on the couch and hugged close..We will get through this and now Joe is now at peace and playing...and that part makes the pain in my heart ease..When I bring Joe's ashes home...I know I'll feel much better...
As the day went by my empty feelings started to lighten...as I kept thinking of how would we handle all this cold... I watched the birds come in and feed...and boy were they hungry....I watched the Squirrels attempt to get to the feeder...then finally wait till some seed dropped..and they were like bees making honey...
Talked with hubby off and on as he was concerned on how I was doing...and as I told him.."I'm ok, all of us are ok...and we will be ..."...Again I want to thank all of you for your prayers and support...
As the night rolls in...again I'll hold on to that pillow...and probably will for some time...as it helps to just know we'll meet again.
God Bless
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Friday...A Very Special Day
Friday...A Very Special Day...Not only is it Veteran's Day but a day I said "Good Bye" to a special "Trooper"...My best friend JOE..
It is with a heavy heart that I post on my blog...between the water in my eyes and the pain in my heart...I will miss him terribly.
This morning was very chilly and my Joe struggled to please me...he tried his best to stay with me...and as I watched this boy struggle I got angry...Yes, I was angry at what was happening..all he wanted to do and did on this earth was be with me and please me...He was the light of my life with his antics..He was always by my side no matter what...even challenging any one that dared to move into his spot..
Well, I watched as he fell over trying to go out and I picked him up...he was a mess and I was angry at that..then I realized what I was doing...and why my anger was growing...it wasn't his fault, it was mine...he only wanted to be with me...after I cleaned Joe up I looked at him and held him and told Joe.."it was ok...I have to let you go home"..to be where he could be happy and run again...to be with the rest of the Critters he knew...He'd be king of that castle and keep my bed warm for me... He knew as well as I...this was the time..
I called Bob and Diane to come over and come with me as I knew I wouldn't be able to drive home alone...and so they did...I called the Doc and asked if I could bring Joe in...Bob held Joe as I drove and Diane was in the back to be with me when we went in.... In the car on the way over all the alarms were going off... I couldn't believe it..we could hardly talk and Joe just leaned his head back and I reached over and patted it..talked with him and told him.."these bells are ringing for you, Joe"...
In the Doc's office I held Joe till he left me...it was peaceful and Joe was ready...I felt his life leave and I whispered to him..."we'll be together again...now you are in God's arms"...yes, there wasn't a dry eye in the office...but I was also at peace...my boy was no longer gonna have any more hard days..
When we got back in the car and drove....not a whistle or a bell rang and I said to Bob and Diane..."Those bells were for Joe"...!
As I look over at my bed..Reba and Zeke are laying there and that empty space still has Joe's pad and pillow...I can't remove it..not yet...and maybe not even tomorrow...
Dinner time was very quiet...Zeke went over to Joe's crate and I had to tell him..."Joe's watching over us"...it was so sad to watch my others stop by Joe's crate and only thing I can think of is they were just wondering where the boy was...
Tonight as I go to bed I'll say my prayers and thank Jesus for the time he allowed me to have such a wonderful friend...and Marshall, (who was Joe's human buddy in life until he lost his battle with cancer) is smiling down on us.. as now he has Joe to play with.
God Bless You Joe !
It is with a heavy heart that I post on my blog...between the water in my eyes and the pain in my heart...I will miss him terribly.
This morning was very chilly and my Joe struggled to please me...he tried his best to stay with me...and as I watched this boy struggle I got angry...Yes, I was angry at what was happening..all he wanted to do and did on this earth was be with me and please me...He was the light of my life with his antics..He was always by my side no matter what...even challenging any one that dared to move into his spot..
Well, I watched as he fell over trying to go out and I picked him up...he was a mess and I was angry at that..then I realized what I was doing...and why my anger was growing...it wasn't his fault, it was mine...he only wanted to be with me...after I cleaned Joe up I looked at him and held him and told Joe.."it was ok...I have to let you go home"..to be where he could be happy and run again...to be with the rest of the Critters he knew...He'd be king of that castle and keep my bed warm for me... He knew as well as I...this was the time..
I called Bob and Diane to come over and come with me as I knew I wouldn't be able to drive home alone...and so they did...I called the Doc and asked if I could bring Joe in...Bob held Joe as I drove and Diane was in the back to be with me when we went in.... In the car on the way over all the alarms were going off... I couldn't believe it..we could hardly talk and Joe just leaned his head back and I reached over and patted it..talked with him and told him.."these bells are ringing for you, Joe"...
In the Doc's office I held Joe till he left me...it was peaceful and Joe was ready...I felt his life leave and I whispered to him..."we'll be together again...now you are in God's arms"...yes, there wasn't a dry eye in the office...but I was also at peace...my boy was no longer gonna have any more hard days..
When we got back in the car and drove....not a whistle or a bell rang and I said to Bob and Diane..."Those bells were for Joe"...!
As I look over at my bed..Reba and Zeke are laying there and that empty space still has Joe's pad and pillow...I can't remove it..not yet...and maybe not even tomorrow...
Dinner time was very quiet...Zeke went over to Joe's crate and I had to tell him..."Joe's watching over us"...it was so sad to watch my others stop by Joe's crate and only thing I can think of is they were just wondering where the boy was...
Tonight as I go to bed I'll say my prayers and thank Jesus for the time he allowed me to have such a wonderful friend...and Marshall, (who was Joe's human buddy in life until he lost his battle with cancer) is smiling down on us.. as now he has Joe to play with.
God Bless You Joe !
Jan 22nd 1996- Nov 11th 2011
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